Oh, and as a result of this, he is now fully addicted to his iPad. It used to be a Grandma’s House Only kind of thing, but she sent it home with him last month and it’s been really difficult to pry it out of his candy-coated little fingers. If he isn’t on his iPad, he’s reading a dictionary. He now has over a dozen dictionary and wants a new one every time he goes into a bookstore, which I indulge, because dictionaries should be a good thing but they are becoming a nuisance.
On the upside, at his IEP meeting we learned that he has the receptive vocabulary of a 7th grader. (They said a lot of really good things at the IEP meeting, but the bad parts…well they were really bad. For example, “Nicholas has clinical levels of anxiety and depression.”)
But on the downside, these are huge dictionaries that he wants to carry everywhere, ALONG WITH the iPad. It’s annoying. And probably making it even more difficult for him to socialize. I finally found two illustrated pocket dictionaries, so at least those are easily to take around.
I’ve tried hiding the iPad, but when I do this, he follows me around, crying and asking for it, and I usually give in after an hour of the whining. And my mom is like, “Why would you want to take it from him?” and she has a valid point, because he only plays educational apps and now knows about two dozen words in both Mandarin and Japanese, and idk, maybe 300 signs by now? But there is no way spending 10 hours a week in front of a screen can be healthy for such a young child. He has a ton of other things he could do, either independently or with me or Colton.
I can’t wait for summer. I want to quit my job and stay at home with him and not be tired all the time and engage him in outdoor activities and non-computer/iPad related things. I want him to be prepared for Kindergarten and have age-appropriate self-care skills (he has zero self care skills. Maybe because I’m a terrible mother who lets him spend all of his after school time either at my mom’s, where he watches cartoons until I get off work, or at home, mostly on his iPad until bedtime, which is like, an hour or two after I get off work.)
I am sort of just venting because I don’t want to bother any friends with how shitty a mom I’ve been since January.